After Christmas..<3

well..tis soooo latee for tis kind of post..i`mma so sry..haha..was so lazy 2 post tis d..and plus alwiz i wan blog d..sure cannot d..sumething will come up..lols..=)..so..the christmas party was ok..we all did well..and yea..I gt presents..hmm..not many..but also tis christmas was better lor...^^well..what I got..let me seee..O.O
>New shoes..yay!!..nice ones 2..haha
>New headphones..been dying to get 1 of tis ever since my old wan broke down
>Handphones chains..nice ones 2..
>Cookies..Famous Amoss!!!..<3..bake><...kekeke~..just joking..=D
>clothes
>Cap
>wrist-bands..
>and some more stuff which I 4got..><..lols..pspsps~

well...christmas is over..and lets usher in the new year..Good-Bye 09!..Hello 10!..and for me..is Hello TO THE DREADFUL SPM!!!..haiz...stress already..=X..lols..tats all...signing out!


Now Playing : J.Holiday-Be With Me

Christmas Approaches..<3

Ok..xmas is here..let me see..my list is complete and hopefully all of them or some get fulfilled..if not..seppai larr..O.O

Christmas List
1.PSP
2.Bike
3.new hang kai shoes..etc
4.new mp4 or mp3..hopefully an iPOD!!..XD
5.new shoes
6.a bling..GOLD!..XD..but fake la..keke

and it goes on and on every year...and added new ones..lols..

-so about my xmas plans..wil be helping aunty nancy on teh refreshments at the xmas party at my church..will be singing in the choir at the party..tried to ask some frens but they gt plans..and will try 2 ask more..hope u guys come..haha..gt countdown wei..XDD..neh neh neh..hmm..and about the results..it`s all out!!..almost every1 gt their results dy..my poor kai mui..its ok la..not too late..just try ur best..ishh ishh ishh~i also need 2 buck up wei..!!

haha..ok I gt2 stop here..my xmas post wil be after the party i guess..haha..byee~=D

Now Playing : Neyo-Waiting

ok...now in Penang..ready..><

ok..in penang..slept all the way..and coming back in 5 days..a long holiday..but its gud so that..so I can relax and rest..XD..and ready to post something about APYAC..that conference was a fun one..for this post..I will just summarise it..it was so fun and a refreshing time..great experience..actually..I was struggling a bit..I tot God has left me..I don`t feel him..its all so cold and dull..but after that conference..it has changed me..well..I`m still me la..ofcos..XD..I`m also glad that God has visited my friends 2..at first I felt skeptical about it..I just dunnno y..but I was blessed and it totally change my way of thinking..will talk abt it later..a full thing of what happened at the conference from day 1 to day 3..ok bak 2 penang..aishh..so tired..yawwnn..nd moree rest~~..nw using cuzin comp...ok lar her comp..but the internet explorer is like being change a bit into some weird chinese third party program browser but it`s still IE..except different a bit..the download helper for that "browser" is fast man..hhaha....gona have it..ishh..nthg 2 say..just homesick dy..and tats so fast...wow..miss my buddies,frens and my meis..3 of them..hehe..ur kor hope that ur enjoying ur holidays..XD..=]

Penang Bridge!..cross it 1 day ago..=]

Now Playing : Jay Chou-Yue Qu

just back..no swt..=.="

>Just back from APYAC..goshh..and gt carols..haha..and going 2 penang agin 4 some days..for holiday...so no time 2 blog abt the events..I will be posting something..when I`m at penang..coz now it`s like latee..I gt2 sleeeppp~..tmrw wakee uppp forrr theee triiipp 2 penang~..XD

>the Lord was moving in the hearts of ours and many at the conference..It was a great time basking in the presence of God..chains were broken and hearts were mended..will be writing more on the conference in a while..

Away...

Going for A.P.Y.A.C..so wun be blogging..I will be updating when I`m back..3 days later or so..=]..I gotta sleep..have 2 wake up early for tmrw..going to GTPJ for the APYAC at 7am..goodness!~..O_O...yawnn..gud nite..


"SIGN OUT"


Now Playing : Breathe Slow-Alesha Dixon

Results..

So YEah..I got my results d..when I reach the school..all I saw was SPM students..going out after their subjects and few teachers..lol..I tot nonit take..well..I saw la..vivian heng,ming yu,May gee and a few others coming out too.Ok..so gt take la..I went to the office and take..and yea..my results is..not too bad..yea..gt some improvement..and I gt 15/30 in the class..just tat..plus..peratus of 54.56%..something something..lol..nvm..-.-..its over.!!??..dun wan tok d..=]

Now Playing : Mario-How Do I Breathe

Outing with Cuzins^^

well...I`m not suppose to go out coz sometimes I no mood go "hang kai"..but still I went out with my cuzins..OMG!..shopping is alwiz veli tiry..tsk tsk tsk~..well..1st gt 2 stop by bank and wait for aunt to withdrawn some cash..lols..the whole lot of us following her 2 the bank..either looks like we are her bodyguards or we are following her 2 rob the bank..XD..-.-..either way..and yea..after that..we are off to sunway!..well..it`s like 1130m when we reach there..not much people at that time..plus it`s a monday..1st day of the week..so yea..but that`s gona change in 2 hrs..lols..and yea..so separated into 2 groups..me,my bro and my cuzin bro 1 group,and my aunt,cuzin sis and grandparents 1 group...soo...me and cuzin bro was like wondering what 2 do...so.we went to the arcade..haha..play games..driving games la..and shooting games..and we all saw this dancing game..we play it too..OH mMY!!..I love it like crazy..we dance dance dance till like lunch time at 3 for us..the pics of the arcade and the dance thingy are all below..I din`t get to take many pics coz..partly..I was too busy having fun..XD..and lazy 2 take out fon..we played Para Para Paradise,Dance Dance Revolution and some other driving games most gila is MaxTune 3 DX..haha..plus..I played Rambo,House Of The Dead and many shooting games unthinkable..xD..and we spent like me and my cuzins all 2gether 60 tokens..60!!!..gila wei..pokai dy..T.T..ok..lunch time..went to Ajisen Ramen..some jap restoran..I ate beef teppanyaki..the drink which is Ocha..some japanese green tea..is nicee..the food was good..I wanted to buy ice-cream at some shops ahead..but its so fraeking expensive..oh my..but still...ITs Sunway!!..duhh..-.-..well..then we went for a walk again..in the group again..and guess wat..my group went to teh arcade againnn!!~..-.-..oh crap!..again!!~??...well..I din play at 1st coz..I still full and I ate some Ireland potato like fries..it was ok la..then I played..OMGG!!...we all played Para Para Paradise again..dance dance dance until crazy..and even after all that..I have carol practise in the nite..I was dancing like crazy still..hehe..I thk I`m into dance dance dy..XDD..well..yea..after all those..we all went asian avenue..me and my cuzins and bro bought some stuff..like merchandise..clothes..new shoes..plus I bought a new hoody..I thk tats the spelling..-.-..my cuzin bro actually came back with his sis and aunt which is his mom from New Zealand..so yea..He was asking me and telling about me abt tis gal he just saw..he say damn Hot!..and yea..I told him tat gal from my skul..you know 1 thing..when u go sunway..olmos every person from my skul..could be seen by you at random..it`s like yea..close to home..lol..well..after that.w.e all meet at TGIF..and walk up the escalator..went to the parking lot..drove out..on the way home..lucky no jam..I was liek half-sleeping on the way home..too tired dy..it was sooo tiry..but..2 sum if up..I had a great time..hahahaha~=]

tat nite..somemore gt carol practise..lazy la me to go..blekk..=P..but I went la..hahaha..lucky din sleep...lol...[ H.A.P.P.Y ]

~This are the pics~

Right at the corner is the House Of The Dead

MaxTune 3 DX!!!!...XD..but I`m not really good at it so..-.-

Tekken 5 and some other random consoles..

DDR!!!..XD..but the Para Para Paradise is at the back corner d..

Now Playing : Neyo-Real Thing

[S.I.G.N..O.U.T]

Moody..Leftout..sigh..

Moody..tats me nowadays..well..It`s hard to say why..but it`s just me now..the feelings too complex..missing people,hating people,angry at people and bla bla bla~so many things now..leftout!..the BIG picture tats happening now..am I too lame or bored?har?ishh..sometimes I don`t even have the time..to go out and stuff..people say..people do..I guess everyone hates me..it`s so damn true..haiz..even people tat are closest to me..my kai jie...did I force you to be my kai jie?..a bit then angry dy..and it`s like u dun treat at all like ur kai di..nvm la..maybe I`m 2 suck for you..sry if ur reading this..I cannot tahan dy..I guess I am too suck for you..dun say what lastime thing dun tok and I accept you dy..DUN GIVE ME THIS KIND OF BULLSHIT!!!..sry..my language..but I as i told my dad & mum..the language I`m going to use in this post will be terrible..sry God,frens and sorry jie..I gt2 say it dy..just tell me in my face la..that you hate me and dun wan 2 be my jie dy..coz maybe I`m not what you expect or like I`m so "yong sui"..damnn!!..haiz..y am I like tat?maybe thats y u all hate me..1 of the stupid reasons..and for the F***ing shit day..tats 2day..some fren have to just write all those shit thing 2 me like I`m like trash..hu are you r?my mother a?you DON~T HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY ME LIKE WHEN YOU URSELF ARE AN ASSHOLE URSELF!!!..really a B**** la you..ishh~..you just damn make my day worse..ishh..I know all my friends are having fun..some of them..and me just leftout..maybe I`m too fussy but its ME!!..haih..I have to get over it if not I will be going on a rampage and pray the Lord will have mercy on those that are in big trouble bcus of me!!..I don`t ever wan 2 talk 2 you again..dajie..I thk..I will find a time..I will just say everything out..and ITS OVER!!..you make me lose trust in you dy..yala..I MAYBE TRASH TO YOU BUT I WUN`T GIVE A SHIT AND PLEASE RETRACT THOSE BULLSHIT THAT YOU PREACH TO ME!!!..bloody make my ears bleed...I tell you wei..I HAD ENUF!!..I really had enuf..I thk I`m going to break down...haiz..God help me!!..I can`t take it any longer..but despite me having some of this SHITTED frens..I do have my buddies..my pals and my frens..those people stood by me..thanks for everything..my attitude has to change..I gotta change..just hope that I can get over it..and sorry to anyone if I had offended them in any way in this post..excuse me..I`m sincerely sorry..just pray with me that God may release all this chains that have chain up my heart towards this hurts on life that we all have to go thru..pray for release..thanks

NOw Playing : 2NE1-I Don`t Care

Being Left out..haih..=(

Pray for me folks or just hope that all will be well for me & you that is reading this post and also..If you are facing the same problem as me..God will help you..He always does..I guess I will have to bit the dust first..He will bring me through......

Shud I or Shud I not..

wei..shud I go and take my results?or shud I not..ishh..dilemma..when to take..how 2 take...but 1 thing I`m sure..I`m taking it myself..hahaha..~..or nxt week..lol..=.="

No Electricity...

It was a day without electricity or suppose to be..hahaha~few days ago..my dad recieve a letter from the electric company..it says that my whole housing area will be out of electricity from 9am-2pm..thank God it was a morning..if it was a night time blackout..we will be toast..and we all will be praying for the moon to shine brighter..even we mayb have people running around in night gowns or night time clothes carrying candles..XD..I was like ok..fine...no electricity..its fine..but it wasn`t fine..i thought it would be fine..silly me..=.="...the day has come..in the morning when I woke up..and my bros are away at camp for 3 days...means..I have the computer all to myself..woohoo!~but I din expect this shit to happen..=.="..my internet suddenly died..I was like..crap..nice crap happening today..ok..maybe just a cable fault..it will be fix..I totally 4gotten abt the blackout..until..I was playing dota...just only started...using Earthshaker..F.Y.I..it or he is a walking bull holding a big piece of wood with markings on it..bought my items...and earning gold...was having such a good time..untill...=.="...my computer just off in front of my face..the fans all off...everything actually shut down...and then I rmbr there was suppose to be a blackout...then..I was like omg!!...crap!..damn!!...argghh!...thx a lot!!..hmm..15 mins has past since the blackout..helped my grandpa 2 chop down the tree..then i went back into the house..suddenly...it was 1030..30 mins since the blackout..poof!!..the fans came back on..and my computer actually started-up..wooowww~..thank God..yess...i was like so happy..and played game again after that..and sign in all my net stuff...yea..js that..say..9am-2pm?..it wasn`t even 1 hour for it to came back..haha..but I dun give a damn abt that..as long it is back..its back!~..XD

[ NO-ELECTRICITY WARNING ]

They shud have posted this on the letter..=.="

No Title..It`s just nice..XD

Big Bang-Number 1

This is a nice video..nice glasses they have..=]

Prom : I Can`t Go..nvm..RESULTS..BLAH!!..=P

This year prom..I can`t go..partly..I still have 1 more year and many of my friends are not going..ahh mann..no tickets..no time..coz too busy with the xmas stuff..hmm..never mind..tell myself that..next year still gt chance de..mayb the prom will be something like this video down here..XD..but I`m sure they wun`t let..hahaha

>Big Bang-Farewell<

Holidays have hit the 1st month away..stil left weeks...plus this week..I have to go back to school to take the results for my end-term..wooo~..I just hope that it will be good..my friends from other schools have got their results and for me from them is 1 word [SUCKISH]..great..=.="

When the sun has gone down,and darkness comes..all you have to do is

GET A TORCHLIGHT!...XDD

Just hope that the results are good..and may the holidays be longer..please!~

Now Playing : Lin Fei-Let Go

Next On Playlist : Neyo-In The Way

[ ....DISCONNECTING.... ]

Rusty Hands

when you are at your best..you thought that the feeling of being the best wil go on..but you worry too when will it all end..a hope that it would not..for me..I have no regrets..is this the end?I felt that the inspiration that have been given to my hands to play music is leaving me..am I not practising a lot?have I dread to play?haih..I felt that I don`t have the eagerness to play already..is doing something at a constant pace and repeatingly makes you bored?I guess it does..I have to do something about it..my hands have rust..I need some oil to remove it..doing things that makes you dreaded will kill you slowly..talents that you have will be wash away..I have 2 stop tat from happening to me..

Now Playing : Rain-Escaping The Sun..=]

Next On Playlist : Big Bang-Let Me Hear Your Voice

BOred..=B

BOredom..ishh~why is it so dull?..it`s the holidays..but still it feels like time flies slower when you`re having fun but the fun is somehow boring..weird..=_="..the feeling of holidays is at it`s peak when your having your school days..that was before the holidays..now the holidays adi..you somehow feel that it`s just so dull and nothing to do..besides the form 5`s having SPM...the form 4`s playing and many more..ishh...me oni sit at home and just stare into space and do nothing much except eating,sleeping,computer and bla bla bla...

why no1 ask me out to go hang kai dy??..haiz..like i`m a stone oni..T.T...plus sometimes I can`t go out coz of so many things dy..ishh..y they have to come now!!??...crap~!..@.@..this kind of people also call frens ar..some of them..really crap la..konon-nya frens..ask to go out...never tot of asking me..mebbe I`m kinda fussy abt this but still..arrgghh~..sighz...nvm d la..leave me here to rot..#_#..still I appreciate those buddies of mine..haha...holidays go hang kai dy..luckily gt this buddies of mine..my whole gang of friends..and my dearest "kai mui"..thx for teman ko ko alwiz..=]

For those so call "Friends"..nvm larr..still..I respect your actions and your choices..I won`t say anything...just let it be..=)...I shall be back again...+.+

NOw Playing : Iyaz-Replay

Next on the PLaylist : Tae Yang-Look At Me

at least gt music to teman me...=D

A Day OUt^^

Went with my family to watch 2012 at sunway pyramid,that show is awesome weii!!~the destruction..a bit of drama..storyline is super gudd..u all shud watch it..veli gud show..even the idea of what the people did escaping earth`s destruction is simply amazing..xD..brilliant~!

also went to ampang and eat ampang yon tau fu...omg..it was delicious..i wanna eat againn..x3 and visited my uncle,he brought us to this super nice steamboat..oh man!..I wanna eat all those food againnn..xD..but it was tiry..=X..reach home about 1030+...then i sleep dy..too tired..but still..it was a fun day..=]

holiday blues

ishh..hols js started with a slow pace..but I sumehow feel its either gona be bad or gud..hehe..hu knws...?=0

now playing : Drop it Low-Ester Dean Ft Chris Brown..=D

Exam over!!

haha..its overe..playyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!....xD

Exams Blues

It has been a busy week for me..exams exams..finals..I find my finals and all finals..really terrible..the papers are dreadful but still...thats why they call it finals eh?..=]

1St day-BM 1 & 2
-ok
-not bad tho

2nd day-English 1 & 2
-ok lo
-not that bad also

3rd day-History(Sejarah)
-paper 2 was dreadful..and so badd...its was a killer paper..but thx 2 Pn Reetha`s tips..we all made it but barely..oh God!..pray 4 that paper~
-its was a 50-50 line that we all shud pass..if not we die!!..*pancung kepala*

4th day-Biology
-omg..paper 2 was terribly dreadfully hard..thx a lot Mr Suresh..U did all the papers and all the papers all also killer type..haizz..
-but still I can do a bit lo

5th day-Chemistry
-paper 2 was really tough..and I dun really like chem so..yea..had 2 struggle..dishh~
-paper 1 was ok..luckily and I did study 4 it..so I guess I did fine..so so la...=_+

6th day-Add maths
-nothing 2 say...paper 2 was by Pn Ong..I thk she plan 2 do this 2 us..T.T..100% tough..+ I gt stomachache..no more curry at exam times..swt~
-paper 1 was ok coz I study d...and I could do most of it..Thank God and thank Mr Soong!~

7th day-Physics
-we all tot it was going 2 be hard but..thanks Pn Siti Aminah..u shud do all our papers all the time..yay..but its was paper 2 ni and 3...but physics..I did study..so..I could manage lor..thank God and teacher..Mr Soong also!..haha

Still gt 2 more days 2 go..hope we all can make it...=]..and after that..it`s MEGAFUN! & MEGAPLAY!..xD

End

I`m gonna sleeppp..gud nite whole world..0___o...Z.Z

A Train Of Though>>FATHER TIME...

DUHH..I do really lose my train of though..halfway through to my brain station it stops..don`t know why??....well..it has been a long time since I posted something on my blog..I just don`t know what to write...the feeling is just empty....haiz~...but I can try...sports month for the Sword Squad Youth Group..I`m in-charge..Gonna be so busy...have 2 get joey back 2 help me do things adi..and charity..thx 4 helping me plan d event..but we do have a lot of work 2 do...its just the beginning...time flies at a rate which we do not comprehend..It`s almost the end of the year..wowww...come back time!!...dun go so fast..but nooo...we just can`t do that..time plays many games with us...game of HOW-EARLY-CAN-YOU-REACH-SCHOOL...I just try not to be late for school..i`mma like dreaming all nite long until I can`t hear anything..o____o.....zzz~tats all.....x|

Congrats..Newly Weds..=]

A heartiest congrats and God bless 2 my bro and sis in christ..lionel and charity..for they are getting married 2day...haha..will be going 2 the ceremony ltr d..and hope we have fun..or we surely have fun..either way..=]

~Happy hols 2 my frens 2..and 2 the pmr students..step lightly..partayyyy..XDD

Its Empty

back from camp..and tat was a few days ago..say 1 week...will be writing sumething..tis day really bo mood 2 write d..=]

Going 4 Camp..[UNAVAILABLE]

Dear readers..I will be going for church camp and won`t be updating my bloggie or online for a couple of days..so if there is anything...u can leave a msg at the cbox provided at the left corner of my blog..thank you..=]..and I will be unavailable..XDD..until I`m back from the camp..psps~

Getting pass the Barrier

Barriers do block everything and anything that is in its path..our lives have barriers too..Being block by a barrier makes us feel frustrated..things that we want done..are not done..our wishes not accomplished...efforts wasted..it`s really a sad thing being that..but all barriers can be broken and pass through..if we look at the bright side..making it through with friends..against all odds...we can and will do it..barriers can be pass....if we believe we can break through..I had bad times before..times that you can feel like giving up and just throwing everything that we know and care...just be a sick and lonely self..barriers are tough on us..it breaks every hope of a brighter day..but it will need just little faith to believe in yourself..we can have a breakthrough....

SURROUND ME FRENS..|SMF|..XP

Life surrounds me with friends..friends of many kinds of personailty..friends are like this below:
haha...just love those personalities...this is noted:RANDOM....XD..hehe~

Holiday Blues...and bla bla bla..xP & |Random|

I don`t know why I feel like this??...having something but yet you don`t feel that you have it...no ownership over it even though you really do have ownership over it..aihaizz~..T>T...why?why?why?..plus those problems..people..sometimes people really do you real good or real bad..it depends on what they think of you or vice versa..I hate people sometimes...like people at my school..treat me like shit at times..but it`s like so nostalgic..we always own up to each other and we are back as friends..connections...stronger ties that bring people together..situations that bond people..act as a medium to trigger some mechanism in our lives that make us strive to protect that person at all cost...we suddenly feel that we have power to protect and that person has the right to survive..my Holiday blues..what am I talking now??...this is like so random..XP..*chuckle*...but besides that..I do treasure people..coz people makes me smileeee..=D

The Matter that You Do Suck at Times..=.="

Well...you really suck..do you know that??ur attitude...ur way of talking...the way you treat people.."like so berat-sebelah"..yala..I know i`m a nuisance to you d...I`m at the bottom of ur list..and yesss..ofcos..you treat me like trash..literally~and omg..hu cares??!!!...still you ask me to do sume shit for you..just so that you can do all the stuff u like to do....!!!...yess..i know that..and yess...not to say i`m jealous..but sumetimes I really hate the way you treat people...and ur always-wanna-win attitude...debate debate debate like ur so gud then you go around telling people like and debate adi..win liao..then say like sume shit..hahaha~..ain`t that so funny??..its not!!..its kinda shitty to hear it...you know..people can just give you a punch on ur pretty lil face..y did i say pretty??!!!...damn...=.="...but people js dun wan 2..coz you`re cry and pout or maybe sulk...tats ur problem..i dunno...i cant judge~...but the matter of fact is..I would love to give you a big punch or a slap on ur face to kick you out of that self-centered little life of urs..and you will understand the pain you have cause on me and other people..you thk ur gud..but ur worst...sensitive??sensitive..my asss...~...=.="..tats all for now..i will now suppress..but still..i will wait and have fun..soon soon soon...~I will have ur face on my plattery hands..and I`ll love that every gud moment..=.="..thx!!..for being a damn goody suck person that i have come to know...thx a lot!!..[sign out]..****!!

I will and will not..~x|..???o.0

Will I not go to school?man..the school like half-deserted coz of the h1n1 thingy..my school gt like 3 or 4 suspected case...SUSPECTED oni and like tat..but still no difference for me...conclusion..no nid go schoollllll~..yay~..XD..but haiz..my dad like "tidak apa" wan..tell him about it he like no serious de le..T.T...wellll....=\..i guess i will be going..aishhhh~..nvm la..just wear a mask 2 skul..speaking of maskes..i would love to get a gas mask..looks flashy flashy..yeaaa~...=]..nvm la..tats all now...will be posting something soon..stay healthy..[Di$c0Nn3ctiNG]..PIMP~

I have done it..yesss!!!!~XDD

finally..I have fix my comp...yess...the big prob is already fixx~..reli thx to my frens d...after all those help..i have been whopping around like mad..being so frus about it..haizz~but still I tried my best and it did work....XDDD...who say kenot fix??!!!...wahahahahaha~..>,<...err...but still there is a small prob d....will try 2 fix it again..i tell u wei...i will not die wit this prob d..wahahahaha~..X)

Rest and Relaxation

haha..after all those test and exams..I won`t be having any of those until october november or so....so I will be resting nia..XD..so happy d..but still I have many things to plan..stuff coming up d..lols..=]...plus..my comp still having problem..crap!!!...*yishh*..been trying 2 fix it..I guess it is reformating time..==..yikes..=X

Comp Probs..=.="

Hey all..sry haven been blogging lately..comp gt some suckish probs..being trying 2 fix it..haizz..hope it is worth the effort..=]

Behind Every Story

Stories are Fun.Stories are Great.Stories do Entertained.Stories tell of many things from fiction to facts.Stories do tell of great people with small things but have a great impact on many and sometimes including us.Behind every story is something or someone that are willing to put down every of life`s problems and circumstances to make a change in society and our world.They believe that if no one will do it,they will do it.It takes one to change many rather then many to change one,It maybe many but it can take only one to make a difference.Stories do make a difference in us..people in the story.You can be behind that story because behind every person there is a story...story of change,story of believing and a story of unquestionable sacrifice.You just have to believe you can make a difference...sometimes we have to do something and we find it hard to do so..I find that too..but the fact is sometimes,if you can`t do it,no one will.

Great Stories..Great People..Great Significance..You Can Too..=]

~Long Time No Bloggie~PSPS

Hey all..sry ya..so long din update any post d..coz kinda bz lately and no inspiration write..dunno wat 2 write..but am thking of stuff 2 write too...=\...it will take sometime...hehehe~
skul was kinda suck and reli stress up but we all starting to study and people are getting restless and rajin..but a bit ni...XDD...it was hong jian and a few others that remind me...tat so long i din post anything liao..so sorrryyy~..I will try 2 nia..just have to think about something...tik tik tik~
chi chi chi~..hmmmm..O.o....nvm lu..I will post it in the next 1..hahaha=]

Holidays Are Over,Welcome Back School..T^T

Holidays are over d..all the fun that we all had..all going 2 over d...=(..so sad..and it is time 2 go back 2 skul liao lo.This holidays was somewhat both fun and sometimes boring for me and mayb for some of my frens..plus the youth camp that we had was like always super fun and meaningful..I nearly lost my voice and I fell down and hurt my elbow kinda bad and deep wound 2..still its is ok..have that wound like a remembrance..xDD...haiz..skul!skul!skul!..why!why!why!...ishh..must push skul away..XD...haha..neways..hope every1 had a gud holiday and see you all again tmrw...curse you perhimpunan!!!..I really hate mondays for some reason like that..=\..take care y`all..see you all tmrw..and that old,bored house rule is back again...swt..=$..haha..^^..oh shit!!...still gt homework haven do..but a bit ni..aiyaaa!!~..choi for what??!!...later ni..hehe...xD

~Being Tagged By Hong Jian~xD

1.Kena Tagged By

Hong Jian

2. Your relationship with him/her is :

fren??..lols

3. Your first impression of him/her is:

small??..xD..funny??..=.="

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is

same class...almost everyday hear him say;what you want??;U suck la;SUCKS!;KAO LAT!;jkjk..

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:

U suck la joseph;suck la joseph;what you want??...xD

6. If he/she becomes your lover

fren can la...but lover??!!...I rather die..lols..everyday hear people say;suck

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:

lols..many things..but,kinda complicated..=.="

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:

ma de..za dao...actually I dun really know tho..swt

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

he say suck until people get fed-up...xD.hahahaha~

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:

dunno...talk computer with him??..haha..kinda fun tho..=)

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:

ok gua....kinda fun guy...^^

12. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
lols...din really though about it tho..I guess I did change a lot compare to lastime..=\

13. The most ideal person you want to be is:
just be myself la..and maybe a little mixture of others...lols

14.For people who care and love you, say something to them:
lols..same here..^^

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1.Andy So

2.Joshua

3.Amanda

4.Li May

5.Wee Shin

6.Pui Yan

7.Andrea

8.Nichol(boy)

9.Kah Wai

10.Kok Ming

16.Who is 6 having a relationship with?

Dunno la..but some1 told me b4 that mayb some1 likes her...ryte??HJ??..xD..joking la..

17.Is 9 a male or a female?

male..but he does have a female personality..me and some pals have seen that persona of him b4..super gay wei..xD

18.What is 2 studying at the moment?

Maybe not studying la..emo-ing??hmm..99.99% accurate la that he is doing that...

19.Who was the last person you had a chat with?

amanda,stephanie & jolyn

20.What kind of music does 8 like?

practically the same type of music like me...xD

21.Does 1 have any siblings?

yes..i thk about 2 bros...yep..2 bros..plus his other kais...lols

22.Is 4 single?

nope...never single for a long period of time..xD

23.What is the surname of 5?

Lim

24.What's the hobby of 3?

bullying me??...xDD

25.Do 7 and 9 get along well?

They don`t even know each other..=.="

26.Where is 10 studying at?

Smk Kota Kemuning

27.Say something casual about your eyes:

use to see..scan..repair computer stuff..play games..do work..study..konon-nya..xDD

28.Have you tried developing feelings for 2?

ur crazy!!!??...he is a guy..=.="

29.Where does 9 live?

Kota Kemuning,Kemuning Utama..address??unknown to me..=.="

30.What colour does 4 like?

green

31.Are 5 and 1 good friends?

haha..Hit The Jackpot Question!!...it is not good..it is too good..or maybe too good until kenot good d..xDD

32.Does 2 like 7?

nope..they don`t even know each other at all

33.How did you get to know 8?

form 1..lols..

34.Does 3 have any pets?

a dog..she hates cats btw..lols

35.Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?

haha..I guess so..but still ok gua..xD

36. Are you sexy?

hmm..what do you think??=.="

37.What am I doing now?

just writing this stuff and going 2 eat my lunch..=.="

~Tagged~^^

~Pot-Luck With Fwens~

Friday afternoon,I went with a group of frens to pui yan`s hse for pot-luck..hahaha~..well..the others came early..I was late bcus mother lo..she come bak 4 lunch break from work..but still I ok de..sowie incase I make you all starve when waiting for me..paiseh paiseh~...X3..but still when I arrive..I bring spaghetti..me cook myself with some help from kakak..xD..but still thx 4 teh help..arigato gozaimas!!!..gracias!!...hehe..and me went there and makan and yam cha with me fwens..gt about 8 ppl..but me also din reli count..let me seee..hmm..=3..me,elwin,wee shin,suet peng,hoi theng,meera,mary and pui yan..ofcos larrr..thats her hse..xDD..nvm about that..=="..i thk the spaghetti was the main course because there was not much food there btu still we all can tahan and the best part..kenot finish..haha..gt2 tapao..then we all eat eat eat,talk talk talk,hear music on the tv radio and see that elwin dancing,playing with the chair like a "jakun"..no offense but still elwin was kinda fun guy..lols...then after that we all watch movieee..they all say wan watch scarrry 1 so we all watch la..pui yan and someboby go choose MIRRORS ,we all watch de..haha..some of the gals liek cover with the pillow la then meera was liek texting until she was liek head down and ti~ti~ti~tek~tek~tek~..din reli watch also but she gt like ahhhhh...wth!!..then the pui yan and wee shin like so sked..hid behind the pillow..suet peng also same..btu me le..like sitting down there watching but gt some part I like yerrrr..so disgusting..blekkk~..XP..this show veli yucks wei9 some part.."super rip in the jaws"of 1 women in the show..kenot kao lat..yucks..so disgusting..but halfway that time..about 3 something..elwin and mary gtg d..so we all say byebye then we continue watch walao wei...the end part of the show kinda weird and like a littel stupid..==..lols..after that we all rest and talk about the show..then clean up..wwwallaooo wei..pui yan`s hse gt so many mirrors..so dangerous..watch out..lols...then we all clean up adi..we all go pui yan`s room-pinjam her laptop..wooo..richhh..kachhinggg~..$.$..jkjk la...and watch the drama for the teachers day at our skul this year wan..so funny..laughing at our frens...hehe..then finish d..go talk about teh teachers day and watch the other presentation on teachers day..all on youtube..zzz...then suddenly we all watching some presentation..this suet peng arr...go suddenly tell "story" to us..sry pengg...no offense..hahahaha..her love story la..ex this and ex that..kononnya..fairy-tale..xDDD..just joking..then we all take pictures here and there with pui yan`s soft toys..waaa...so many..cow la..elmo,pig,fish,donkey also gt..==,and many more animals laa..too many d..can`t count..XDDD..then they ask me go take pictures with them and hold a soft toy le..somemore is blue colour cow nia..super sia sui..==...walao..hope teh otehr boys din see it if not i sia sui d..hehe..hai!!!..^^V..after that we all just take group pictures bla bla bla...we all walk to the guard hse and take pictures again at the kolam..lols..nobody drop inside..==..haha..we all have a great time hanging out nia..then time to go home d...we all say byebye..thk u thk u..blablabla then wee shin they all tumpang suet peng car lo..i tumpang my mother wan..then we all go home nia..well,neways..thx y`all 4 the great time nia..had so much fun...laughing and talking..and about teh spaghetti..it`s ok..we all peng you ma..^^V..npnp~..I gt some pics tat we all took from the pot-luck down over here...meera,hoi theng and wee shin & a frog..==..lols

wee shin aka "froggie face"..hahaha~


suet peng..dunno what she doing..lols..posing..==..xDDD

suet peng and elmo and sumething..xDD

pui yan`s kura kura..haha..and something..makes it looks better..so cute..X3

(from left)me,suet peng,wee shin,pui yan..=)

(from left)me,meera,wee shin,suet peng,hoi theng..fwens..=)

suet peng,meera,hoi theng,wee shin,pui yan..lols..all holding some soft toys..xDD..and thats the blue cow that I hold.."sia sui"..js joking la..=D

The Fact That I Hate You Makes Me Wanna Cry..OR NOT!!!!..MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!

You know..having you around was fun tho..we spend so much time together as bro & sis but I guess all those things are just a mere dream and it is full of SHIT.I just don`t understand how you can just break your promises...you cheat your feelings just like that..I felt you have change A LOT.You are just like that..I just don`t know why..among all the sis that I have..I can now feel that you`re one of the worst..this kind of BULLSHIT also you can do..haizz..I seriously hate it la..what is truth to you harr??Is truth always lies all the way for you??...Maybe I like you or something and I am trying to make that DEAD DOWN THE DRAIN ,I said that I will never like you even as a fren or a special person and even that I can`t even imagine.To me you`re just 1 of my closest sis..and nothing can change that but I feel that I am really giving part of my TIME to all your NONSENSE.I just can`t take it ANYMORE..=.="...haizz..but still when I see you like that my bro instincts kick in..I feel veli sad for you..so kolian tai~..><...but still I still try and help no matter what but now..after seeing everything that has happen..I feel like I`m doing nothing but SHIT.The fact that I hate you really makes me wanna cry..I don`t know what has happen to me and you..I feel that you`re not my fren at all d..=(..and I don`t want that..but still..><..all that you have done really makes me SICK!!!!! and DISGUSTED!!!...you`re not a true fren at all..you just a mere piece of living ***** that will never succeed in anything and for now...I will help but soon I will TERMINATED (speaking of that..haha..I was just saying oni larr...don`t take it so "feeling"..xD)everything that we have before and you ARE and WILL never be my fren...EAT THIS...****...hehe..hahahahaha..xD..muahahaha..>=D..*evil laugh*

Disappointment

Words cannot describe what I feel now..It is like I don`t know you anymore...why do you have to do this?..this is just so immature..so weak..you have no stands at all...no priorities..omg..when will you learn from your mistakes??..Does it take something to hit you so hard then you will regret??..does that have to happen??even tho now..i`m having my holidays..I`m not so aware of wats happening bak at KL but this....ishh..==...now many people will have to pay 4 ur stupid little mistake..people like your frens and family,closests ones.etc..=(
Sometimes I`m ok wit anything that happens,but THISSS!!!!....gosh!!...$@#&!!!!!..you know,I feel like it is all totally SHIT!..you just don`t keep your promises..you can`t even make a stand..you cheat your feelings...like a player..I can`t believe what am I hearing at first..haizz..I wish I knew you better..I wish you can just "bertaubat"-turn over a new leaf....all those troubles that you face..all those forseen circumstances..and you ask y does this happen?in the first place..you should ask yourself..why??..why??!!!..why do you have do do sumething and end up everything happens to negative way??..i wish you can just think for yourself la..am I doing whats right??ask yourself that damn question..fine!...it is just nothing mush..I AM JUST SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!!!!..>=(

Teachers day Drama..woots~

SUCCESS!!...it was a success..in less then 48 hours..we manage to "cook up" a superb drama..everything is last-minute plan..and everything was plan by brain-storming sessions..althought in the process of planing it..many things happen and unforseen circumstances seem to come but still we as a drama team,we made it...and manage 2 kick it of with a smash..xD..it was funny and somewhat crazily insane...with those teachers acting on stage with us..those teachers really know the moves..they plan everything 2 with us..although we all sacrifice a lot of energy and time but I guess it paid off..I`m very proud in working with the drama team together this year.This year was my first year in the drama team..and I din`t really gt use 2 it but in time I did,although I have some hidden conflicts with the team but still I wait it out..and just hang on..xD..but all I want to say is..it was really fun working with you all..I guess after teachers day..no more drama adi..it is just normal until the end-year comes..plus it is the holidays..time to relax..and have some fun..movie time..hahahax~Here the links to both of the video of the teachers day drama for 2009..enjoy..hahas..this is soo damn funnahhh~
(there are 2 parts of the video,coz mayb too long larr..xP)
Pt -1>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_e6Ijm5Qv8
Pt -2>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPVjIigRiHk

Mid-Term Exams OVERRRR!!!!!!!!!!!..xD

Mid-term exams..after 10 days of terror and fear...it is OVERRR!!!!..yay!!..walao~..ryte after it is over,me and many people started scream like mad..until classes liek 2 1 block away also can hear us..wowww..sound waves..xD..well..after all it is still not SPM..so no meaning la..cut it out man!!!...=3=...still long...well..now I have many things to rush even tho exams over d..booklets for camp..haiz..and many moree..hope I can finish b4 dateline..but still..IT IS ALL OVERRRR...yay!!!..xD

Mid-Term Exams..haizz...0.o

EXAMS...5 more days..yesss!!!....faster!fast!fast!..FINISHHHHSSSS...woots~

Mid-Terms..=.=

Mid-term exams are here..and wat a whopping shit 2nd day...chemistry was a killer..i see blood,sweat,tears and moreeee BLOOD!!...why la??WHy??...really hate this kind of exams..but u know..hw much u say also no use wan..have to go through it..ishh..super sia sui la..paper 2 chemistry was an eye-popper...when we got d question paper..the first word was..OMG!!..and..lastly..==..ok...I`m gona crap on it...yikes~...we all try our utterly best..even plus asking questions while d exam was on..thk of tat..sorry larrrr....force 2 do it de..xD..but luckily..our 4 sc 3 have our future drug-maker and chemical alchemist boy..Mr Low Kuan Shen..have 2 tell u wei...although he makes all those weird sightness sounds because he gt some breathing probs i thk..and needs medication..=..wtv about tat..he has brains wei..and pretty good ones too..he is smart wei..so we all ask him question and answers until he was like hysterical..poor fellow..gt so stress up..brain-overload..sweat more then he breath..xD..he study sooo hard..but at d end he did everything..but he nearly gt shutdown..hahahaha~..but neways..thanks bro..even though sumetimes ur like acting around like a bai chi fellow..but ur ok man..brothers wei..^^v..thx 4 saving all our asses wei..poor asses..xD..haiz..still gt 10 more days of terror and fear..10 grueling days..gila wei..nvm about tat..just hold on and study like crap then after that is our HOLIDAYS!!!..so happy until can lie down on the road..XD..ok la..gt 2 stop typing..i mayb wunt be updating anything on me blog coz gt exams...or mayb i will like write down sume small glimpse of wat happen at me exams..gud luck every1..study study study...=)

It`s Over..HAPPYYYYY=)

It`s over..luckily dint get veli bad bad de...haha..am soooo happyyy=)

You Are Not The Same As You Use To Be..=(

Haiz..I really dunno..wats wrong with you..we use to talk and talk and talk..and enjoying each other`s company..but now after that incident that i guess really hit you hard on your emotions..you are like acting a little weird to me..haiz...like no mood to talk like lastime and it is like you don`t really like talking to me already and you like dun wan me as your gorgor d..i ask you d questions but ur answer will be no no no..but i sumehow feel that it is far more complicated then it use to be now...i kinda worry for you and hope that your feeling ok...but still you alwiz say that you are fine but i thk it is not that easy..sumething is just bothering you somehow..and i guess like my friends use to say when you find sume1 better,the old 1 is better of for nothing..i hope that it is not like that..mei..seriously...=(

But mayb it is my fault..I say things but sumetimes i din do..I say will come see you but sumetimes due to inevitable circumstances,I can`t come..and you will be angry or mad at times..not to mention sad..but still we both okok de..haiz..sobz..mayb it is my fault..now sumetimes you never reply me due to bcus ur bz but sumehow gor feel a little sad lorr..=(..you are not the same as you use to be..now we rarely talk..even if we talk,it is kinda cold and no more that gor and mei factor d..=(..wat is happening to us??have we come in a point of time that we have to go on our separate ways..haiz..gor feel veli troubled...sad..i don`t want it 2 come to this..that we both will be hating each other..and stuff like that..how could we??..all those memories...d bad times that we both share..good 2..money can`t buy those memories..sighz..mei...i hope that we can both make things straight and settle things..but gor really hope that everything can be fine..=(..mei..come back...T_T

KENA BULLY KAWKAW

The samething happen as usual in school..study..play..talk..and BULLY..walao wei..same thing everyday..but just a little different in terms of approach..yea..having a kid tat u dunno walk up 2 you and say ur a pregnant old lady..and i was like..wth!!..=.=..hw did u know tat and btw tats not my name..==...omg..every1 is catching up wit this phrase..yikes...it is like a disease...nvm..just bear wit it..wow..those people seem 2 be doing a good job in recruiting ppl to their bullying joseph campaign...tsk tsk tsk~..choi choi choi..btw..mid-terms coming in a short period of time..gt2 start studying but as alwiz la..say ni also never do d...xD..ishh..ok..i gt tuition now...gtg d..will be posting sumething soon..hehex...^^

I Got It All Back~w00ts

I gt everything back....after all those moments..I finally gt to settle down and blog like I used to..hehe=)....it has been a long time since i updated something..sorry guys..am busy for d last couple few weeks..so sometimes I curi-curi check my emails and blogs,friendster and so on...=P..bt still am going to be busy with school and stuffs~....aish-aish-aish~..and my mid-terms are coming but ain`t not to worry..still a long time..for now just relax relax a while..chill chill..ice coldd..woooo~

~I`m Back~Blehh..xP

After everything..I wanna thank all of those who help me out during those shity moments and thanks for all the support..and I`m back to my happy self....^^..went to school nothing to do de now...except just talking..pay attention la and so on..and ponteng sumetimes..xP..after school then go see my panda meimei..and plus some people...those people arr..i tell u..bully me kawkaw wan..non-stop leii....~...d most terror wan i must name...GRACHEL KIM,GIANNE CHIN,AUDRY WONG..and so on..so many more..just see them oni..immidiately gt kena hurl by insults like gun oni..shoot!shoot!shoot!....wat la u all..dun kolian me meh??..T.T..xD....call me pregnant lady..and arr..useless giant..wat la u all..T.T..so kolian la me..din do anything also kena..tsk tsk tsk~..haizz..and d best part is..they are "recruiting"more people and their friends to get to know me then bully kawkaw again..walao...they tarik so many of their friends to get to know me then bully me for d fun of it la..so cold betul la they all..now so many people know me and all of them follow go bully me..insult la and so on..and laugh laugh laugh..aiyoyoyo~..and ya..I nearly 4got sume1 ad...yes yes yes....plus AMANDA CHOONG also..same same kind..all pakat and kacau me for d fun of it..and laugh laugh laugh..and now..I bet they all tarik soooo many ppl liao 2 their motto"BULLY JOSEPH KAOKAO!!!"..no regrets..yepyep..woohoo..^^v..so sad la me..tsk tsk tsk..

E.M.O

I can`t believe it..I`m so emo for the last few weeks..many things happen to me..haiz..can`t take it all in..must throw all out...sighz..=(...they want to take everything..just take it..but before you do..you will have to walk over my dead body and stamp on my grave then you can have those shit that you all have always wanted..ishh..>=(..JUST TAKE IT ALL!!!!...TAKE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN!!!..JUST TAKE TILL I`M DEAD!!!!...grrrrr..ishh=(

My Favourite Aeroplane..hehehe..x)

My favourite aeroplane has to be the F117 NightHawk...OMG..This sounds so childish...hehehe..x)..(I just dunno why I though about this thing)I love this plane from a young age it is because I just loved the design of this special aeroplane.It is black in colour and it has this unique design that is totally different from any other aeroplane.Plus..It is a plane build for stealth and which stealth is 1 of my favourite tactics in play strategy games.This aeroplane has many weapons which are so powerful and it`s weapons uses infra and laser technology to guided the missles to the target.This plane looks so nice and cool in shape and design and weapons to me.This is the specs for this aeroplane of mine.

Specifications

Primary Function
Fighter/attack
Contractor
Lockheed Aeronautical Systems Co.
Power Plant
Two General Electric F404 engines
Length
65 feet, 11 inches (20.3 meters)
Height
12 feet, 5 inches (3.8 meters)
Weight
52,500 pounds (23,625 kilograms)
Wingspan
43 feet, 4 inches (13.3 meters)
Speed
High subsonic
Range
Unlimited with air refueling
Armament
Internal weapons carriage
Two each of:
2 MK84 2000-pound

2 GBU-10 Paveway II

2 GBU-12 Paveway II

2 GBU-27 Paveway III

2 BLU 109

2 WCMD

2 Mark 61
Unit Cost $FY98[Total Program]
$122 million
Crew
One

I Miss....

I miss my old friends a lot.Being in the same school for like since 4 years or more,I kinda miss their company.After UPSR,we all like separated already..and some gatherings were held in the middle of those times but after a while..all no more adi.I guess everyone is busy lo and no one also can come sometimes for the gathering..but it is ok la..because I`m also kinda bz lo.Haiz..really really miss them..like I can`t really go over to USJ because I`m living in Kota Kemuning.It`s not that far but still I don`t really come down to USJ lor...and now I`m already stuck with my secoundary friends but still I can`t forget all my childhood friends..all those pranks we played,all those jokes and fun.Funny and old times..how I wish I was back in old those good old days were we had nothing to worry...hehe.We share all those happy and sad moments and I still remember those times.Although some of you guys have already left...and some have left us for good like..eh-hem..I won`t wanna mention his name..you guys all know d..I just dun wanna bring bak sad stuff.Haiz..really miss him tho.....=(

I used to remember all of us were in the same old class.M all the way..3M,4M,5M & 6M...hehe..all those fun we had in class..and that good class teacher that we have "jiang lou si".Still remember her all this while..and a lot more good teachers that we have...all that we have been seeing all our primary years...It was fun knowing them and them being part of us.Even the rest of you,I also like duno where you all guys go d..even some which I contacted but leh..like forgot d lo about me..like act so cold wan..I oso liek pai seh pai seh larrr..=X..but its ok la...I just mayb wanna meet you all someday..haha..I know you guys change a lot..I too have change a lot too..lolx...but nvm la..still I remember you guys to the MAX wei..=)..I surely miss you guys..just hope that I will get to see all of you together someday..then I will be complete..=)

That Someone that I Hate but Care

That someone was once my most cared and most cherished person.But as time goes by,that someone starts to leave and ditch me away.It is like I`m not important to that person anymore..and btw that someone is not my interest or wat k?..don`t think "out"..xP...I feel that all this while...I have been cheated by those words which I though mean a lot to me..all those experience and encouragement..behind all those is all lies and deceit.

The story goes like this...I know that we all have a lot of friends..and all sorts of friends.Friends who see people through their looks and appearance are really really people that you can hate for life and there are sooo...seriously mean.That someone I guess is like that..to me.I cared for that person so much but at the end...it has all come to this.That person all this while was lying to me and that person which I though was good end up like this..haihh..I wonder why..everytime I also kena like this wan..ishhh==

That someone treat me so differently then the other friends that she has.At first when we meet..she was fine with me and I was ok with her..we chat many times and talk a lot of fun things and we are like little bro and big sister.But that was before..and now...things change a lot.It all started after she saw me in person..and do you know wat she say..walao..like so slandering yet very "secret behind the words" type of message.It reads like this-"seriously..you are not what I though you are..but still it is ok".To me,the back part of the message that reads"but still it is ok" is all totally bullshit la,just words of comfort and behind all those is all lies and fake compassion.That message which me and some of my friends have decipher reads like this-she all this while though I was someone that was her expectation and like her thinking but when it all was wrong,she was like..okayyyy...=.=..nvm ba..this type of people to me is slowly will forget de..just like trash.WAT THE HELL WEI!!!!..I really was so damn angry when I know about it.But at the same time I was sad because that someone that I trust as a friend and a sister turn on me just like that,out of sheer prejudism.

I had many bad and moody times after that.I kept wondering and trying to see what I could do.I try to tell myself that everything that I have seen or heard is wrong and it is just me being over-thinking but still I though for a while and I have decided to give her a chance and try to warm up to her as a little bro and friend lo.But still..to cut this post short,many turn of events happen which pointed out that my worst fears had come true..people closest to me have just ditch me away like that.haiz=(...I was so hurt and I was kinda sad and depressed and at the sametime angry.I treat you all so nice and well but to me back is all shit and trash.Not to say that I want you to give me your best,your angel looks la and so on..be natural.But it seems that it is your natural lo..=(...finally I got to know the truth and I wish I had knew it earlier so that I don`t have to just believe and waiting for things which will never happen well to me.I don`t know why..I`m always treated liek that by people..ishhhh=(..Am I so bad-luck till like this??..huh?..>=(...Why must this things happen to me?AM I YOUR DOG TO PUSH AROUND???...DAMN!!!...Why don`t you all just tell me the truth and don`t keep saying all those lies and manipulative words so that I can scold THE HELL OUT OF YOU!!!..then I will just forget everything and be lonely as always I am..SHIT!!!...>=(

I really want to believe that you all are not like that..I really do...but I was wrong..very wrong.I want to believe that all of this was all just a bad dream but still it has become a reality.You know I find it hard to say goodbye to you..because it is never a right time to say goodbye..But I have to make the first move if not you are going to hate me and you will feel a burden in being my friend when you don`t want but you have to..I hate this kind of things..I find it hurtful and crappy.I know that someday we have to go our separated ways and it is hard but if I don`t ..it will kill me and my emotions..I know it is hard..but I have to leave everything behind of me that includes you but still I just can`t do it..listening to what my hearts wants really makes me wanna cry..I keep asking myself why!?!?why!?!?..why I take so long to say this!!!???...I just don`t want to take your time..You will understand when I`m finish and I don`t want to see you cry and break your heart..But you have broke my heart so badly..I just can`t take it any longer..I have and will do it...You are someone that I hate but still I care..but it doesn`t matter now...go away..T.T..just go..=(

Me and my Panda meimei

It is sometimes fun to have a little sis..although they are very naughty at times and love to bully or scare us for fun and then laugh all the way=),like my sister..also known as my panda meimei.I can`t really remember why panda meimei is her nickname that we both make it up..but well sounds nice la....hehehe~

My panda meimei loves to bully and kacau me when she sees me in school...she will either like spy on me and then when I look back,she wil either hide herself and don`t let me see her,then I look front again.Suddenly,she will jump out and BOO!..scare me like mad...and she wil go on smiling and laughing.Then if she see me angry or annoy bcus she kacau me,she will show me her cute cute d face and I will like ok ok la mei...gorgor tabik liao!!.....hehe...4give u nia..sayang you orhx....mmuakzz~...thats my panda meimei...still even though she kacau me,I still care and love her like a gorgor lo=]

My panda meimei is a very important to me..it is like we both have that gorgor meimei chemistry tho...but still no matter what,I`ll always be with her lo...comfort her when she sad and sharing her happy moments.Well..sometimes when I`m cycling around,I will take the time to go to school and see her when school finish(we both study in same school)....and I will sometimes surprise her lo....but always when she see me she will smile then come to me and then we talk talk nia..hehe=]...then when the time comes for me to go..we both say byebye and I go back home..then around later she will tells me that she back home d..and so on.It is nice and happy to have a meimei like that..although sometimes she is busy...I still don`t mind and I will go do my own stuff and then everytime before she sleeps...Me as her nanny gor will put her to sleep as always d..and she likes tat lo so that she can sleep well throughout the night and sometimes I wake her up lo in a very nice and sweet way only specially for her as my panda meimei.

I also put her to sleep the same nice and sweet way lo=]...sweet memories..very hard to forget..I will surely cherish those moments.hehe..ok..I have to stop writing now..gotta go sleep.....hehe...happy de panda meimei~..mmuakzz^^..I will always be your favourite gorgor lo..sayang and lurb iuuu lotz....mmmmuakkkzzz~

A Heart Yearns...

The Human Heart..a very powerful yet mysterious thing.How it beats to a simple tempo,yet simple but it gives life and blood to all the other organs.It has the power to to take a human life away,when its stops beating,we die.The heart can be hurt by sorrow and grief yet it can be to brighten by happiness and prosperity.We as human have feelings..and feelings can bring us to another level in life which we will experience for ourselves many things which sometimes people don`t understand and sometimes we will feel a little "out" at times.Don`t you think??..=)

We all have our own desires and wishing.We all love wishing for things which we want the most,you know..people say that when you see a shooting star that pass you by in the starry sky at night,make a wish and it will come true.Wishes as some of them come true whereas some don`t...we grumble...Is it our wishes aren`t coming true? or we are wishing for the wrong things in life?

The Human heart yearns..It yearns for comfort.We all live in a world where we all want the best of the best..the most comfort.We sometimes shiver at a slight glance of hardships and life`s circumstances that affect us a lot..We all want designer shoes..shirts and almost everything branded..super smooth and cool sport cars..the latest gadget..everything new.But don`t we ever realise that sometimes the money that we spent can be use for the great of good..feed the needy children in Africa...and to use those well-earn money to fight poverty..we have to ask ourselves the question how many people have to live in poverty just for us to get to the retail store just to get a new iphone.Comfort is good for us but behind everything..there is always a catch.Choices we make greatly affect others...it is just how bad is the effect.

The heart also yearns for love..as we yearn for comfort..we also want to be love.The feelings of being love is yet a very complicated yet wonderful feeling that we sometimes have.Example..you like the girl next door..everyday when you see her..you are more in-love with her...your feelings for her grow stronger...then when you also discover by chance that the girl likes you..you are like the happiest man on earth...They say love is blind...is it?or that girl is blind for loving us or vice versa??who knows..??..hehe =P...Love!....wonderful but sometimes distracting..well as people say..it is all about being in-control not out-of-control..xD

The heart is ours to control..and ours to take care and guard it from all things that hinder us from living a good and faithful life.The heart is the thing that propels us to keep on living and fighting the good fight and finish life`s race.Life is like a storybook..it is all blank at first but soon will be fill with pages and pages of writing..just like our lives.Life`s journey on the road is for us to travel...we mark our own road in life..if anything happens..we don`t blame anybody and we can`t blame anybody.Your life is your`s to keep not to give it away to the sinful nature of the world...your heart is your`s too....not mine..just yours..=)

Debate Auditions-HAIYO!!!

Gosh..I finally sign up for the debate team..=)Hoping to do more stuff this year because my exams are all over d..and must do something lor..=P

The auditions are after chinese new year..so we have a long time to prepare our points and do research..just hope that I can make it through the auditions...yea!!..=D

The Me now...

I`m having a very terrible and irritating time nowadays.My mood this days are a little unstable for some reason that I don`t know and my temper will sometimes flare out at my friends.I just don`t know why I`m like that this days...its so confusing and I would also liek to apologise because I have been neglecting my blog this few weeks,this days I have really no mood and no ideas to write anything and I`m also kinda lazy 2 write tho..=P

Well...first things first..my house computer..it is dying and lagging up..althought I have many times repairing it and its many times work and i`m so glad but now I think it is time.Every thing has it`s end,the question is when.I feel that have to be more trifty this year..have to save up and spent wisely tho..=.I will have to sacrifice a new computer by not buying a new one and save lor.Althougt it is hard but I hope it will work and it is worth a try...just hope lor..=)

Well I have to stop here...I will be writing something new when though of something and maybe a few days later....hoep so lor.Everyone just pray for me and if I have been unkind to anyone and a little annoying..I apologise for it..hope you all understand..=P.Hope so..sighz....Good Day everyone..=).Hope better and brighter days will come for me....=

Death:The Ever Unconquered Battle

We all have to go through life`s circumstances and hardships.Although we do go through them,we sometimes work our way out and problem solved..done!..simple isn`t it?..or sometimes hard but worth the effort.But we have to realise that somethings in life that we have to face has no way of solving them and we can`t avoid them too.One of those things is death.

Death,a natural thing in life and yet for all of us a very sad thing too.If our love ones passed away,our emotions will take a toll and we will feel very emotional.For the pass 2008,I have been to not to say a lot but a number of funerals.I couldn`t help but wonder why?...well i guess it is because life is very unpredictable and 1 minute you see them,the next minute you don`t.Scary isn`t it?...life is like that..that`s why people have been trying to find the secret to longevity means a long individual life.

The Chinese Emperors have attempt to search for the secret to longevity so that they can prolonged their lifespan and rule forever but each time they try,some succeed,some fail..but even though they succeed,they will still die.No one can escape death,it is unevitable and unstoppable,how much people have tried,they still can`t escape it.Life is short as most people say it,all we have to do I think is to make the best of it while we are still living,make the best of our lives.

Life is like a highway,a never ending highway....we are like a car moving..as we go on and live life,we are like moving on a highway.Around us on the highway,there are other cars just like our lives we are surrounded by friends,family members and other people.Cars break down,so do we in life.There are moments in our lives that are the most disappointing and most down moments in life but we have friends to help us up when we fall.Same on the life`s highway,now and then cars will stop by us and help us out when we break down,encourage us to go on with life.But when death comes or when we witness our most closed ones pass away,their cars stop and they get out.They are no more,we can`t do much actually,we simply can`t,what we can do is to go on with life.