I Miss....

I miss my old friends a lot.Being in the same school for like since 4 years or more,I kinda miss their company.After UPSR,we all like separated already..and some gatherings were held in the middle of those times but after a while..all no more adi.I guess everyone is busy lo and no one also can come sometimes for the gathering..but it is ok la..because I`m also kinda bz lo.Haiz..really really miss them..like I can`t really go over to USJ because I`m living in Kota Kemuning.It`s not that far but still I don`t really come down to USJ lor...and now I`m already stuck with my secoundary friends but still I can`t forget all my childhood friends..all those pranks we played,all those jokes and fun.Funny and old times..how I wish I was back in old those good old days were we had nothing to worry...hehe.We share all those happy and sad moments and I still remember those times.Although some of you guys have already left...and some have left us for good like..eh-hem..I won`t wanna mention his name..you guys all know d..I just dun wanna bring bak sad stuff.Haiz..really miss him tho.....=(

I used to remember all of us were in the same old class.M all the way..3M,4M,5M & 6M...hehe..all those fun we had in class..and that good class teacher that we have "jiang lou si".Still remember her all this while..and a lot more good teachers that we have...all that we have been seeing all our primary years...It was fun knowing them and them being part of us.Even the rest of you,I also like duno where you all guys go d..even some which I contacted but leh..like forgot d lo about me..like act so cold wan..I oso liek pai seh pai seh larrr..=X..but its ok la...I just mayb wanna meet you all someday..haha..I know you guys change a lot..I too have change a lot too..lolx...but nvm la..still I remember you guys to the MAX wei..=)..I surely miss you guys..just hope that I will get to see all of you together someday..then I will be complete..=)

That Someone that I Hate but Care

That someone was once my most cared and most cherished person.But as time goes by,that someone starts to leave and ditch me away.It is like I`m not important to that person anymore..and btw that someone is not my interest or wat k?..don`t think "out"..xP...I feel that all this while...I have been cheated by those words which I though mean a lot to me..all those experience and encouragement..behind all those is all lies and deceit.

The story goes like this...I know that we all have a lot of friends..and all sorts of friends.Friends who see people through their looks and appearance are really really people that you can hate for life and there are sooo...seriously mean.That someone I guess is like that..to me.I cared for that person so much but at the end...it has all come to this.That person all this while was lying to me and that person which I though was good end up like this..haihh..I wonder why..everytime I also kena like this wan..ishhh==

That someone treat me so differently then the other friends that she has.At first when we meet..she was fine with me and I was ok with her..we chat many times and talk a lot of fun things and we are like little bro and big sister.But that was before..and now...things change a lot.It all started after she saw me in person..and do you know wat she say..walao..like so slandering yet very "secret behind the words" type of message.It reads like this-"seriously..you are not what I though you are..but still it is ok".To me,the back part of the message that reads"but still it is ok" is all totally bullshit la,just words of comfort and behind all those is all lies and fake compassion.That message which me and some of my friends have decipher reads like this-she all this while though I was someone that was her expectation and like her thinking but when it all was wrong,she was like..okayyyy...=.=..nvm ba..this type of people to me is slowly will forget de..just like trash.WAT THE HELL WEI!!!!..I really was so damn angry when I know about it.But at the same time I was sad because that someone that I trust as a friend and a sister turn on me just like that,out of sheer prejudism.

I had many bad and moody times after that.I kept wondering and trying to see what I could do.I try to tell myself that everything that I have seen or heard is wrong and it is just me being over-thinking but still I though for a while and I have decided to give her a chance and try to warm up to her as a little bro and friend lo.But still..to cut this post short,many turn of events happen which pointed out that my worst fears had come true..people closest to me have just ditch me away like that.haiz=(...I was so hurt and I was kinda sad and depressed and at the sametime angry.I treat you all so nice and well but to me back is all shit and trash.Not to say that I want you to give me your best,your angel looks la and so on..be natural.But it seems that it is your natural lo..=(...finally I got to know the truth and I wish I had knew it earlier so that I don`t have to just believe and waiting for things which will never happen well to me.I don`t know why..I`m always treated liek that by people..ishhhh=(..Am I so bad-luck till like this??..huh?..>=(...Why must this things happen to me?AM I YOUR DOG TO PUSH AROUND???...DAMN!!!...Why don`t you all just tell me the truth and don`t keep saying all those lies and manipulative words so that I can scold THE HELL OUT OF YOU!!!..then I will just forget everything and be lonely as always I am..SHIT!!!...>=(

I really want to believe that you all are not like that..I really do...but I was wrong..very wrong.I want to believe that all of this was all just a bad dream but still it has become a reality.You know I find it hard to say goodbye to you..because it is never a right time to say goodbye..But I have to make the first move if not you are going to hate me and you will feel a burden in being my friend when you don`t want but you have to..I hate this kind of things..I find it hurtful and crappy.I know that someday we have to go our separated ways and it is hard but if I don`t ..it will kill me and my emotions..I know it is hard..but I have to leave everything behind of me that includes you but still I just can`t do it..listening to what my hearts wants really makes me wanna cry..I keep asking myself why!?!?why!?!?..why I take so long to say this!!!???...I just don`t want to take your time..You will understand when I`m finish and I don`t want to see you cry and break your heart..But you have broke my heart so badly..I just can`t take it any longer..I have and will do it...You are someone that I hate but still I care..but it doesn`t matter now...go away..T.T..just go..=(

Me and my Panda meimei

It is sometimes fun to have a little sis..although they are very naughty at times and love to bully or scare us for fun and then laugh all the way=),like my sister..also known as my panda meimei.I can`t really remember why panda meimei is her nickname that we both make it up..but well sounds nice la....hehehe~

My panda meimei loves to bully and kacau me when she sees me in school...she will either like spy on me and then when I look back,she wil either hide herself and don`t let me see her,then I look front again.Suddenly,she will jump out and BOO!..scare me like mad...and she wil go on smiling and laughing.Then if she see me angry or annoy bcus she kacau me,she will show me her cute cute d face and I will like ok ok la mei...gorgor tabik liao!!.....hehe...4give u nia..sayang you orhx....mmuakzz~...thats my panda meimei...still even though she kacau me,I still care and love her like a gorgor lo=]

My panda meimei is a very important to me..it is like we both have that gorgor meimei chemistry tho...but still no matter what,I`ll always be with her lo...comfort her when she sad and sharing her happy moments.Well..sometimes when I`m cycling around,I will take the time to go to school and see her when school finish(we both study in same school)....and I will sometimes surprise her lo....but always when she see me she will smile then come to me and then we talk talk nia..hehe=]...then when the time comes for me to go..we both say byebye and I go back home..then around later she will tells me that she back home d..and so on.It is nice and happy to have a meimei like that..although sometimes she is busy...I still don`t mind and I will go do my own stuff and then everytime before she sleeps...Me as her nanny gor will put her to sleep as always d..and she likes tat lo so that she can sleep well throughout the night and sometimes I wake her up lo in a very nice and sweet way only specially for her as my panda meimei.

I also put her to sleep the same nice and sweet way lo=]...sweet memories..very hard to forget..I will surely cherish those moments.hehe..ok..I have to stop writing now..gotta go sleep.....hehe...happy de panda meimei~..mmuakzz^^..I will always be your favourite gorgor lo..sayang and lurb iuuu lotz....mmmmuakkkzzz~

A Heart Yearns...

The Human Heart..a very powerful yet mysterious thing.How it beats to a simple tempo,yet simple but it gives life and blood to all the other organs.It has the power to to take a human life away,when its stops beating,we die.The heart can be hurt by sorrow and grief yet it can be to brighten by happiness and prosperity.We as human have feelings..and feelings can bring us to another level in life which we will experience for ourselves many things which sometimes people don`t understand and sometimes we will feel a little "out" at times.Don`t you think??..=)

We all have our own desires and wishing.We all love wishing for things which we want the most,you know..people say that when you see a shooting star that pass you by in the starry sky at night,make a wish and it will come true.Wishes as some of them come true whereas some don`t...we grumble...Is it our wishes aren`t coming true? or we are wishing for the wrong things in life?

The Human heart yearns..It yearns for comfort.We all live in a world where we all want the best of the best..the most comfort.We sometimes shiver at a slight glance of hardships and life`s circumstances that affect us a lot..We all want designer shoes..shirts and almost everything branded..super smooth and cool sport cars..the latest gadget..everything new.But don`t we ever realise that sometimes the money that we spent can be use for the great of good..feed the needy children in Africa...and to use those well-earn money to fight poverty..we have to ask ourselves the question how many people have to live in poverty just for us to get to the retail store just to get a new iphone.Comfort is good for us but behind everything..there is always a catch.Choices we make greatly affect others...it is just how bad is the effect.

The heart also yearns for love..as we yearn for comfort..we also want to be love.The feelings of being love is yet a very complicated yet wonderful feeling that we sometimes have.Example..you like the girl next door..everyday when you see her..you are more in-love with her...your feelings for her grow stronger...then when you also discover by chance that the girl likes you..you are like the happiest man on earth...They say love is blind...is it?or that girl is blind for loving us or vice versa??who knows..??..hehe =P...Love!....wonderful but sometimes distracting..well as people say..it is all about being in-control not out-of-control..xD

The heart is ours to control..and ours to take care and guard it from all things that hinder us from living a good and faithful life.The heart is the thing that propels us to keep on living and fighting the good fight and finish life`s race.Life is like a storybook..it is all blank at first but soon will be fill with pages and pages of writing..just like our lives.Life`s journey on the road is for us to travel...we mark our own road in life..if anything happens..we don`t blame anybody and we can`t blame anybody.Your life is your`s to keep not to give it away to the sinful nature of the world...your heart is your`s too....not mine..just yours..=)

Debate Auditions-HAIYO!!!

Gosh..I finally sign up for the debate team..=)Hoping to do more stuff this year because my exams are all over d..and must do something lor..=P

The auditions are after chinese new year..so we have a long time to prepare our points and do research..just hope that I can make it through the auditions...yea!!..=D

The Me now...

I`m having a very terrible and irritating time nowadays.My mood this days are a little unstable for some reason that I don`t know and my temper will sometimes flare out at my friends.I just don`t know why I`m like that this days...its so confusing and I would also liek to apologise because I have been neglecting my blog this few weeks,this days I have really no mood and no ideas to write anything and I`m also kinda lazy 2 write tho..=P

Well...first things first..my house computer..it is dying and lagging up..althought I have many times repairing it and its many times work and i`m so glad but now I think it is time.Every thing has it`s end,the question is when.I feel that have to be more trifty this year..have to save up and spent wisely tho..=.I will have to sacrifice a new computer by not buying a new one and save lor.Althougt it is hard but I hope it will work and it is worth a try...just hope lor..=)

Well I have to stop here...I will be writing something new when though of something and maybe a few days later....hoep so lor.Everyone just pray for me and if I have been unkind to anyone and a little annoying..I apologise for it..hope you all understand..=P.Hope so..sighz....Good Day everyone..=).Hope better and brighter days will come for me....=

Death:The Ever Unconquered Battle

We all have to go through life`s circumstances and hardships.Although we do go through them,we sometimes work our way out and problem solved..done!..simple isn`t it?..or sometimes hard but worth the effort.But we have to realise that somethings in life that we have to face has no way of solving them and we can`t avoid them too.One of those things is death.

Death,a natural thing in life and yet for all of us a very sad thing too.If our love ones passed away,our emotions will take a toll and we will feel very emotional.For the pass 2008,I have been to not to say a lot but a number of funerals.I couldn`t help but wonder why?...well i guess it is because life is very unpredictable and 1 minute you see them,the next minute you don`t.Scary isn`t it?...life is like that..that`s why people have been trying to find the secret to longevity means a long individual life.

The Chinese Emperors have attempt to search for the secret to longevity so that they can prolonged their lifespan and rule forever but each time they try,some succeed,some fail..but even though they succeed,they will still die.No one can escape death,it is unevitable and unstoppable,how much people have tried,they still can`t escape it.Life is short as most people say it,all we have to do I think is to make the best of it while we are still living,make the best of our lives.

Life is like a highway,a never ending highway....we are like a car moving..as we go on and live life,we are like moving on a highway.Around us on the highway,there are other cars just like our lives we are surrounded by friends,family members and other people.Cars break down,so do we in life.There are moments in our lives that are the most disappointing and most down moments in life but we have friends to help us up when we fall.Same on the life`s highway,now and then cars will stop by us and help us out when we break down,encourage us to go on with life.But when death comes or when we witness our most closed ones pass away,their cars stop and they get out.They are no more,we can`t do much actually,we simply can`t,what we can do is to go on with life.